The first day of the year

The first day of the year
I bless another tear
When I think what I’ve left
Behind me there’s a mess
I‘ve never been so wrong
I’ve seeded just failures
But I have to hold on

The first day of the year
And I am always here
This is my only home
One of the few things
I know I wanted to reach all
But I’m becoming old
And my future’s hollow

The ritual of yesterday
You said brought your sadness away
And I’ve tried to understand
Why I can’t feel the same

And the bonfire was so strange
So many spirits lit the flames
Because our intents
We can’t yet understand

The first day of the year
Heeding all around here
Every leave that now drops
May have its own real plot
I feel weary sometimes
But I’m reckless in spite
From morning to the night

The ritual of yesterday
You said brought your sadness away
And I’ve tried to understand
Why I can’t feel the same

I've understood that Nature is
the mirror of God for me
in every season there's
a profile of His face

1st November 2017