Siamo solamente idee incarnate
ricordare il pensiero originale
è la via per riconoscersi davvero
intanto io ascolto il vento gelido
suonare le corde degli alberi spogli
in questo bosco in attesa dell'inverno
sabato 31 dicembre 2016
lunedì 26 dicembre 2016
Svanire
c'è un'ultima sottile falce di luna
a ferire il cielo dell'est
l'osservo sanguinare di luce
mentre ancora l'ovest sbiadisce
dietro un canneto imperturbabile
(Respiro ogni particolare
per allontanare l'angoscia
la grande paura che ho
di svanire)
venerdì 23 dicembre 2016
I ask the wood to call my name
When I want to escape
From my life of shades
I ask the wood to call my name
I ask the wood to embrace my fate
And I can bear again
It is my own way
To accept my face
Is often wrapped into the deep shame
While it would be covered by innocence
The one that I can find here again
I believe in something that I cannot define
It’s the only thing that gives me the strength to fight
When all the lovers have gone
When all the friends have gone
I will remain with my faith alone
Even if I’m trying
To forget my nightmares
I feel their breath over my neck
Every time I’m just outside my land
And there is not a safe place to rest
I believe in something cannot define
It’s the only thing that gives me strength to fight
When all the lovers have gone
When all the friends have gone
I will remain with my faith alone
From my life of shades
I ask the wood to call my name
I ask the wood to embrace my fate
And I can bear again
It is my own way
To accept my face
Is often wrapped into the deep shame
While it would be covered by innocence
The one that I can find here again
I believe in something that I cannot define
It’s the only thing that gives me the strength to fight
When all the lovers have gone
When all the friends have gone
I will remain with my faith alone
Even if I’m trying
To forget my nightmares
I feel their breath over my neck
Every time I’m just outside my land
And there is not a safe place to rest
I believe in something cannot define
It’s the only thing that gives me strength to fight
When all the lovers have gone
When all the friends have gone
I will remain with my faith alone
mercoledì 21 dicembre 2016
Istante
C’è un mare infinito
tra il mio cranio pulsante
e il mio cuore fradicio
lo intravedo in fessura
con gli occhi socchiusi
nell’istante in cui il sole
capovolge la sua rotta.
winter solstice 2016
sabato 17 dicembre 2016
Silenzio grezzo
La notte è immensa
un canto di martiri
acerbe invocazioni
che stillano ossigeno.
La via è nascosta
appena oltre il vento
dove l’unica lingua
è silenzio grezzo.
Stamane il sole
è fiorito di nuovo
in un cielo ingrato
immemore di sé.
sabato 10 dicembre 2016
Quasinverno
Le ore prima del tramonto
in questi giorni di quasi inverno
sono fragili benedizioni
ognuna con il proprio odore
e con una differente luce
ch’allunga le ombre all’estremo
come le lunghe dita di Dio
che accarezzano la terra.
mercoledì 7 dicembre 2016
Tefilláh
Sul limitare del crepuscolo
nascosto dietro la porta a sud
ho ascoltato il vecchio frassino
intonare segrete tefilláh*
per allontanare la nebbia
e confinarla verso nord.
I giovani olmi increduli
frusciavano nella brezza
per imitare il sacro verso
mentre una lacrima sottile
bruciando mi ricordava
la mia apostasia.
(ho perso il mio Siddur**
lungo la strada tortuosa
che conduce dalla mente
all'anima sperduta)
* “Preghiere” in ebraico
** Il libro ebraico delle preghiere quotidiane
sabato 3 dicembre 2016
Bernice
Per dimenticare
chi sono diventato
(paglia secca sotto la pioggia)
ho popolato il pomeriggio
di ricordi e di musica
cadaveri di sogni
cerebralmente morti.
Mi rammento primavere
infinite di speranze
e vorrei fosse di nuovo
Adar* in un istante
per immergermi nel cielo
e ritornare vergine
senza più sembianze.
Vorrei esser Bernice
per fermar l’emorragia
con un semplice tocco **
ma sono disarmato
e nudo di parole
la mia amata voce
soltanto una reliquia.
* Il mese di marzo nell’antico calendario ebraico
** Vangelo apocrifo di Nicodemo 7,1: Bernice è una donna che testimonia a favore dei poteri taumaturgici di Cristo, dicendo di essere stata guarita da un’emorragia che continuava da 12 anni con il semplice tocco della veste di Gesù.
mercoledì 30 novembre 2016
Life is a road, death is a myth
Mentre la luce continua a cadere dal cielo e a finire sepolta sotto terra, ogni giorno di più, io sento forte come non mai il tempo stringermi intorno al collo. Sento le sue dita lunghe e fredde sulla pelle. Prima le sento appoggiarsi, poi premere e poi stringere. Fino a che faccio fatica a deglutire e la stretta di ripercuote simmetricamente e magicamente sullo stomaco. È la stretta del tempo che ho perso e che non tornerà. La stretta dei fallimenti figli del tempo sprecato. La stretta di tutto ciò che sarei potuto essere e che invece non sono. A tratti questa sensazione si trasforma in angoscia e non sempre ho la forza per gestirla. E quando anche ci riesco, mi rendo conto di essere in mezzo ad una guerra. Una guerra contro me stesso, pur essendo apparentemente contro gli altri. Una guerra di domande senza risposta. Senza mai una sola risposta decente. Cosa farò? Dove andrò? Non conosco la via, non conosco la verità. Conosco purtroppo la collera, ora. Ma non ho più una regola empirica con cui affrontare le anomalie che stanno distruggendo il mio paradigma. “What will I do? Where will I go? Show me the way, the truth, the anger. Show me rules of thumb. Show the way to grow old”. E allora mi torna in mente la morte. Come sempre. Mi suggerisce che c’è una via di uscita. Veloce, dolce, senza conseguenze. Un abbraccio di silenzio che mi attende. Provo a scrutarla chiudendo gli occhi di notte e osservando l’oscurità più totale. E la trovo così immensamente rassicurante. Credevo la vita fosse una via da seguire. Ma è divenuta per me solo un segreto. La morte invece è un mito che ha radici profonde dentro di me. “Life is a road, death is a myth. Life is a secret, death is a myth”.
Le parti in inglese sono tratte da “Play For Today” by Belle and Sebastian
sabato 26 novembre 2016
Tiny little world
When I was so little little little little little
And the fields in front of the house seemed to be immense
Lights further the square were to me New York
It is so small my tiny childish world
People of my everyday life were important
They were big and always full of meaning and of light
I looked at them standing in my corner
Where the floor was so warm that I felt safe
And now that I’m grown
I try to contain the emptiness inside
I know that the world
It is not so infinitive but I
May be I have sold
My childhood without gaining any life
And there was something like a enchantment in the time
That could proceed in all directions according to my mind
And mostly all the dreams could become true I didn’t think
I could have lost them all
And now that I’m grown
I try to contain the emptiness inside
I know that the world
It is not so infinitive but I
May be I have sold
My childhood without gaining any life
And the fields in front of the house seemed to be immense
Lights further the square were to me New York
It is so small my tiny childish world
People of my everyday life were important
They were big and always full of meaning and of light
I looked at them standing in my corner
Where the floor was so warm that I felt safe
And now that I’m grown
I try to contain the emptiness inside
I know that the world
It is not so infinitive but I
May be I have sold
My childhood without gaining any life
And there was something like a enchantment in the time
That could proceed in all directions according to my mind
And mostly all the dreams could become true I didn’t think
I could have lost them all
And now that I’m grown
I try to contain the emptiness inside
I know that the world
It is not so infinitive but I
May be I have sold
My childhood without gaining any life
lunedì 21 novembre 2016
Ho chiuso fuori l'inverno
Ho chiuso fuori l'inverno
per mietere tempo
col setaccio spietato
della consapevolezza.
Non ci sarà un perdono
per l'accidia calcolata
solo il silenzio della nebbia
che cancella il cielo.
E l'inverno non tarderà.
lunedì 31 ottobre 2016
Samhain is the mode
It's almost Samhain
A special Samhain
'Cause I need to rebirth more
than before and I know
it’s the right moment
It doesn’t rain here
And it’s not cold, still
And most of the wood is still
Dressed with summer and I
Love this autumn so warm
It’s the time to join to join
The eternity
Without being frightened frightened
To live really
I am at the end of
My feeling so secure
It’s coming back in a blow
All the weakness I know
Only challenges in front
It’s the time to allow to allow
The new begin
Samhain is the mode the mode
To make it real
A special Samhain
'Cause I need to rebirth more
than before and I know
it’s the right moment
It doesn’t rain here
And it’s not cold, still
And most of the wood is still
Dressed with summer and I
Love this autumn so warm
It’s the time to join to join
The eternity
Without being frightened frightened
To live really
I am at the end of
My feeling so secure
It’s coming back in a blow
All the weakness I know
Only challenges in front
It’s the time to allow to allow
The new begin
Samhain is the mode the mode
To make it real
domenica 30 ottobre 2016
Promessa
Promessa solenne
Trenta di ottobre
(Notte di angoscia)
Chiedo da oggi
Nuova alleanza
Al tempo sordo
Per preparare
Le mie mura
Prima dell'inverno
martedì 25 ottobre 2016
Decifrare
Decifro lettere
interrogo memorie
del passato ancestrale:
stento a squarciare
il velo nero dell'oblio
tempestato di giorni
e inverni infiniti.
Il mio sangue svelerà
il simbolo recondito?
giovedì 20 ottobre 2016
Discernimento
Nell'ampiezza inconclusa del mondo
occorre discernimento
per rendere l'osso sacro
perpendicolare a una terra
per imparare una lingua
dal sibilo di un vento
per seguire il richiamo
di un punto cardinale.
(Io invece sbriciolo insensatezza
su sentieri che si biforcano
in mezzo ad attese sterili
mentre ascolto questa pioggia
intonare l'idioma
di un altrove cosmico )
lunedì 17 ottobre 2016
Nion *
Ho visto il frassino ritagliare
con foglie ancora appuntite
pezzetti di cielo turchese
per sminuzzarli all'alba
sul cristallino attonito
dei miei occhi stanchi.
Sono divenuto un sarto
attento di amnesia
che unisce colori e frasi
per tessere il disegno
immobile e crocifisso
del perfetto fallimento.
* “frassino” in gaelico irlandese
mercoledì 12 ottobre 2016
Fengmen *
Il vento del nord ha sferzato
con violenza inaudita
in questo primo autunno
la mia colonna vertebrale
il dolore del cambiamento
interseca le mie vertebre
che scendono gocciolando
dal mio cielo immaginato
(il mondo ruota ancora nel cosmo
spinto dallo stesso vento
che attraversa le sbarre aguzze
delle prigioni metafisiche)
* “Porta del vento in lingua cinese”
sabato 8 ottobre 2016
Your son
Along your way back home
You found a boat
To cross the lake of nothingness
I saw you from a coast
And I have thought
You were so strong to fight them
And at the end you have won
Within your arms your son
Your bad times have gone away
And the pain washed the shame
Let the people being their shades
And your darkness fade away
You are a mother now
And you can say it loud
There were dark periods and
Sometimes the end
Was so near to be touched
It’s not easy to learn
To live alone
But now you know that
And you don’t need it no more
Now that you have your son
Your bad times have gone away
And the pain washed the shame
Let the people being their shades
And your darkness fade away
You are a mother now
And you can say it loud
You found a boat
To cross the lake of nothingness
I saw you from a coast
And I have thought
You were so strong to fight them
And at the end you have won
Within your arms your son
Your bad times have gone away
And the pain washed the shame
Let the people being their shades
And your darkness fade away
You are a mother now
And you can say it loud
There were dark periods and
Sometimes the end
Was so near to be touched
It’s not easy to learn
To live alone
But now you know that
And you don’t need it no more
Now that you have your son
Your bad times have gone away
And the pain washed the shame
Let the people being their shades
And your darkness fade away
You are a mother now
And you can say it loud
domenica 2 ottobre 2016
Cowardice
In this evening when the autumn
Starts to speak with its loud voice
And I’m so far from the ocean
From its beautiful noise
I wonder to myself
Why I am still there
Among the living creatures
And I think it would be better
If I was somewhere else
With the body under the soil
And the soul outside of it
So that I really could
Close this sense of deep rout
And I could melt my being
So maybe it’s better I die
No I can go on trying, again
I hope death is my way to fly
Far from the pain I have inside
But these thoughts are just illusion
And at the end I’m still here
With the heaviness that crushes me
So that I can hardly breath
And it’s so difficult
To stop all by my own
Cowardice is my last failure
Today if I think I will die
I feel better inside, to me
Life is just a gift, not a right
And I have wasted its holy time
Nella foto, Mediterraneo dalla Baia di Dingli, Malta
Starts to speak with its loud voice
And I’m so far from the ocean
From its beautiful noise
I wonder to myself
Why I am still there
Among the living creatures
And I think it would be better
If I was somewhere else
With the body under the soil
And the soul outside of it
So that I really could
Close this sense of deep rout
And I could melt my being
So maybe it’s better I die
No I can go on trying, again
I hope death is my way to fly
Far from the pain I have inside
But these thoughts are just illusion
And at the end I’m still here
With the heaviness that crushes me
So that I can hardly breath
And it’s so difficult
To stop all by my own
Cowardice is my last failure
Today if I think I will die
I feel better inside, to me
Life is just a gift, not a right
And I have wasted its holy time
Nella foto, Mediterraneo dalla Baia di Dingli, Malta
venerdì 30 settembre 2016
Brillare di buio
Si riparte sempre soli
adiacenti allo zero
fragili e neonati
formiche esuli
dopo un temporale.
Settembre lascia solo briciole
a brillare di buio
sotto un cielo indeciso
che promette senza
mantenere mai.
sabato 24 settembre 2016
Nothing is going right
Full moon in the sky but nothing is going right
I protect my eyes with the tears never cried
Crescent in the sky but I see nothing right
I protect my life with the deeds never tried
I dreamt about a life that now I have almost forgotten
I hoped to be a man that now is hidden under oysters
Why I go on, planning the life, while I know that nothing will be right
Dark moon in the sky but nothing is going right
I protect my mind burning plans always blind
Quarter in the sky but I see nothing right
I protect my body from the cold is arrived
I dreamt about a life that now I have almost forgotten
I hoped to be a man that now is hidden under oysters
Why I go on, planning the life, while I know that nothing will be right
I protect my eyes with the tears never cried
Crescent in the sky but I see nothing right
I protect my life with the deeds never tried
I dreamt about a life that now I have almost forgotten
I hoped to be a man that now is hidden under oysters
Why I go on, planning the life, while I know that nothing will be right
Dark moon in the sky but nothing is going right
I protect my mind burning plans always blind
Quarter in the sky but I see nothing right
I protect my body from the cold is arrived
I dreamt about a life that now I have almost forgotten
I hoped to be a man that now is hidden under oysters
Why I go on, planning the life, while I know that nothing will be right
Nella
foto: particolare del tempio megalitico di Tarscen (Malta)
domenica 18 settembre 2016
Giorni sadici
Sono riuscito a piangere
in questi giorni sadici
tre lacrime a sinistra
quattro dall’occhio destro.
Quanto costa la sembianza
della bieca normalità
in questi giorni sadici
tre lacrime a sinistra
quattro dall’occhio destro.
Quanto costa la sembianza
della bieca normalità
martedì 6 settembre 2016
The roots are cut or are they stronger?
I say "come back"
But I don't know what
Today I've left
Also the ancient hopes
The roots are cut or are they stronger
Than what I have thought they could be?
I'm the impression of a future
Than I have never lived at last
The consciousness
Seems only madness
When those I met
Seem to live in a bet
Life cannot be a constant challenge
First or then must arrive some peace
There is no devil or no angel
If you do not want them to be
I watch my feet walking in the wood
They seem to know where is some truth
So I have to stop my thinking
And let my body decide for me
I feel the need to taste the absurd
Total absence of my roots
Together with sense of belonging
To something of really absorbing
I watch my feet walking in the wood
They seem to know where is some truth
So I have to stop my thinking
And let my body decide for me
I feel the need to taste the absurd
Total absence of my roots
Together with sense of belonging
To something of really absorbing
But I don't know what
Today I've left
Also the ancient hopes
The roots are cut or are they stronger
Than what I have thought they could be?
I'm the impression of a future
Than I have never lived at last
The consciousness
Seems only madness
When those I met
Seem to live in a bet
Life cannot be a constant challenge
First or then must arrive some peace
There is no devil or no angel
If you do not want them to be
I watch my feet walking in the wood
They seem to know where is some truth
So I have to stop my thinking
And let my body decide for me
I feel the need to taste the absurd
Total absence of my roots
Together with sense of belonging
To something of really absorbing
Let's stop to eat
Everything but
The little blue
Berries of the wood
Yes it could be almost exciting
To disappear from others' sightings
Everything but
The little blue
Berries of the wood
Yes it could be almost exciting
To disappear from others' sightings
I have to stop to be so frightened
Every time I feel different
I watch my feet walking in the wood
They seem to know where is some truth
So I have to stop my thinking
And let my body decide for me
I feel the need to taste the absurd
Total absence of my roots
Together with sense of belonging
To something of really absorbing
domenica 28 agosto 2016
Mediterraneo
Sotto la grotta di calcare
bianco come le ossa antiche
ascolto il Mediterraneo
raccontarmi d'ere epiche
quando il mare dialogava
con la stessa lingua magica
da Israele a Gibilterra
fin nell'ombelico di Malta.
Poi chiudo gli occhi al sole
e vedo Tritone orbitare
intorno a Saturno il padre
imperturbabile nel tempo.
Malta, st Peter Bay
giovedì 25 agosto 2016
Always the same
This is the place
I find myself
Always the same
Since I’m no more a boy
And I’ve become a man
Here I’m always the same
Over this stone
I wrote my self
In oracles and words
There is no water
This time to see in my eyes
What does remain of myself
But I am pretty sure
I am still powerful
When I am into my wood
Over my stone
I evoke my strength
I need to survive at least
I’ve got three questions
For three answers
About three challenges
I have in front of me
I know it’s difficult
To reach some wisdom
And we lose it so fast
As we were only thieves
19th august 2016
I find myself
Always the same
Since I’m no more a boy
And I’ve become a man
Here I’m always the same
Over this stone
I wrote my self
In oracles and words
There is no water
This time to see in my eyes
What does remain of myself
But I am pretty sure
I am still powerful
When I am into my wood
Over my stone
I evoke my strength
I need to survive at least
I’ve got three questions
For three answers
About three challenges
I have in front of me
I know it’s difficult
To reach some wisdom
And we lose it so fast
As we were only thieves
19th august 2016
mercoledì 24 agosto 2016
Dissolversi
La luna crocifissa ad ovest
intuisce un’alba fragile:
vedo le ombre stanche uscire
tra le zolle dei campi arati
per cercare di dissolversi
nella prima luce incosciente.
sabato 20 agosto 2016
Adamà *
Lava incandescente bolle
dentro il cranio
acqua diluvia senza sosta
sulle mie mani
aria come fosse tifone
soffia nel ventre
pianto i piedi nella terra
per respirare.
* In ebraico significa “terra” (אדמה )
dentro il cranio
acqua diluvia senza sosta
sulle mie mani
aria come fosse tifone
soffia nel ventre
pianto i piedi nella terra
per respirare.
* In ebraico significa “terra” (אדמה )
venerdì 19 agosto 2016
While I am going to resign myself
I reached this day throughout a month of pain
So much that sometimes I‘ve lost tears as rain
In this mixture between past and future I always lose
The new proposals seem never enough
To give the strength I need into my heart
The same picture is into my eyes, it’s a lie?
But I’ve noticed the moon
Is always full
Every time that I
Need a proof
Behind the walnut leaves
It’s giving to me
A message of peace
Please stop to bleed
In the last period I have stopped to sing
And music seems not to be able to feed
My soul that is so heavy to understand
While I am going to resign myself
Still little voices say try to take care
There will be first or then something for me
But I’ve noticed the moon
Is always full
Every time that I
Need a proof
Behind the walnut leaves
It’s giving to me
A message of peace
Please stop to bleed
My 2016 birthday
So much that sometimes I‘ve lost tears as rain
In this mixture between past and future I always lose
The new proposals seem never enough
To give the strength I need into my heart
The same picture is into my eyes, it’s a lie?
But I’ve noticed the moon
Is always full
Every time that I
Need a proof
Behind the walnut leaves
It’s giving to me
A message of peace
Please stop to bleed
In the last period I have stopped to sing
And music seems not to be able to feed
My soul that is so heavy to understand
While I am going to resign myself
Still little voices say try to take care
There will be first or then something for me
But I’ve noticed the moon
Is always full
Every time that I
Need a proof
Behind the walnut leaves
It’s giving to me
A message of peace
Please stop to bleed
My 2016 birthday
mercoledì 10 agosto 2016
L’estate a volte scompare
L’estate a volte scompare
chiude il cielo in un istante
come quando un uomo riesce
a non pensare davvero a niente
e soltanto in quei momenti
si intuiscono nel vento
dimensioni alternative.
Basta così poco in fondo:
l’odore del fuoco spento
da un inatteso temporale
un nuovo volto scoperto
dalla luce nello specchio
l’empireo all’improvviso
che si tinge d’autunno.
L’unicità è combinazione
sincretica di differenze.
lunedì 8 agosto 2016
Meridio
Osservo il sole tagliare la pianura
ogni giorno un poco più a meridio.
Mi ferisce appena sotto il costato:
escono parole in cerca di silenzio
e aceto di lacrime mai versate.
giovedì 4 agosto 2016
Yod dimenticato
Sottile il disincanto
si insinua come vento
negli interstizi vuoti
lacerati di mancanze
e false intuizioni.
Posso cercare ancora
tra le briciole sparse
sotto il tavolo divelto
l'apostrofo che dà senso
quello yod dimenticato?
San Pellegrino in Alpe (LU), 1 agosto 2016
martedì 2 agosto 2016
Still some embers
It's a long time
that I don't pass
the evening in the wood
While the fairies
are still sleeping
but are going to become true
And I have missed so many nights
in the carousel of the seasons of the light
Summer through these mountains
is a living Book
I can read everything
If I wanted to
Maybe this speaking silence is the medicine I need
to try again to survive among the false healers
I can feel that
still some embers
are deep into my soul
from the ancient
Celtic fire
once saved me from the cold
But there is no harvest for this year
only new work, mistakes and lots of fear
Summer through these mountains
is a living Book
I can read everything
If I wanted to
Maybe this speaking silence is the medicine I need
to try again to survive among the false healers
Lughnasadh 2016
that I don't pass
the evening in the wood
While the fairies
are still sleeping
but are going to become true
And I have missed so many nights
in the carousel of the seasons of the light
Summer through these mountains
is a living Book
I can read everything
If I wanted to
Maybe this speaking silence is the medicine I need
to try again to survive among the false healers
I can feel that
still some embers
are deep into my soul
from the ancient
Celtic fire
once saved me from the cold
But there is no harvest for this year
only new work, mistakes and lots of fear
Summer through these mountains
is a living Book
I can read everything
If I wanted to
Maybe this speaking silence is the medicine I need
to try again to survive among the false healers
Lughnasadh 2016
lunedì 25 luglio 2016
The width of the wide abyss
Sdraiato su questo letto, accanto alla collina, questa notte mi sembra di sentirne il respiro. E mi accorgo con dolore quanto il mio respiro sia diverso: più corto, stentato, piccolo. Ho muscoli secchi e affannati e una mente colma di regole mortificanti. E sono cosciente di non essere più così bravo a raccontare me stesso. Negli anni la consapevolezza è lentamente sprofondata nel fango della frustrazione e della incapacità di realizzazione. Ho intrapreso mille sentieri senza concluderne mai uno, con la presunzione di poter essere in qualche modo premiato per i miei sforzi. E anno dopo anno ho perso i contatti con la freschezza di un tempo, raccolta sui pendii dell'ovest nelle notti estive e nei pomeriggi invernali. Quella sensazione di totale identificazione con il proprio essere che ormai a malapena riesco a ricordare. Ora tra le mie molte facce parziali non so più riconoscere quella autentica. E anche la mia scrittura si è fatta più pesante e incerta: pur partendo talora da spunti autentici si perde senza avere un chiaro intento e una meta da raggiungere. La mia vita sembra una parodia senza umorismo ed empatia: la storia semplice e chiara di uno che non ce l'ha fatta. Quantificare le colpe del fallimento, addossarsele o esternalizzarle, non ha più senso. Tentare nuove strade non porta più a niente da anni: conducono tutte allo stesso vicolo cieco. Sono stanco di questa filosofia del cambiamento ad ogni costo che vede nel mutamento e nell'innovazione continua le armi principali per vincere sempre. Non è la staticità che mi ha portato ad arenarmi sul fondale. Sono anzi le molte decisioni prese per cercare un miglioramento ad essersi dimostrate tutte errate e frutto di illusione. A vincere sono sempre gli arroganti e i superficiali, quelli che non hanno timore di sopraffare e combattere senza rimorso. Quelli che sono certi di chi sono e non hanno dubbi. Quelli che scelgono sempre le strade giuste. Di nuovo penso alla morte come la soluzione più dolce, più semplice, meritata dopo così tanto inutile combattere. Ciclicamente questo pensiero torna a me ma ogni volta con una consapevolezza più piena, con meno dolore e paura: ogni volta mi sento più pronto. Quale alternativa ho? Reinventarmi di nuovo, per l'ennesima volta,trovare ancora un equilibrio inedito, basato su nuove leggi fisiche da riscrivere completamente. Ma soprattutto avere la forza di ingoiare un fallimento circolare che urla 360 volte, una per ogni grado angolare. Mi chiedo se ne valga la pena. Mi chiedo perché cercare ancora un senso in una vita che proprio non ne vuole sapere di assumere un qualche tipo di identità. Oppure se sia giunta l'ora di misurare l'abisso. “I've come tonight I've come to know, the way we are, the way we'll go. Come to measure this: the width of the wide abyss”.
Le parti in inglese sono tratte da "Thick As Thieves" di Natalie Merchant
martedì 19 luglio 2016
But somewhere in an hazel wood
I’m so tired that I feel my bones
Crumbling under the gravity force
And I feel like a child even if I’m adult man
I go on digging in my past
When the things had or seemed to have a sense
And I don’t really know when they started to go so bad
Now there’s a constant drain
From my body and soul
I really don’t know why
I’m frightened to be dried
I try to put restrains
But there is no way
I have no other chance
I forgot how to pray
But somewhere in an hazel wood
Some men are still singing up the truth
Maybe I can restart maybe I can be one of them
They can speak directly to the moon
Passing through the whispers of the wood
One day I will rebuild my sensitiveness to the truth
But now it’s constant drain
From my body and soul
I really don’t know why
I’m frightened to be dried
I try to put restrains
But there is no way
I have no other chance
I forgot how to pray
Crumbling under the gravity force
And I feel like a child even if I’m adult man
I go on digging in my past
When the things had or seemed to have a sense
And I don’t really know when they started to go so bad
Now there’s a constant drain
From my body and soul
I really don’t know why
I’m frightened to be dried
I try to put restrains
But there is no way
I have no other chance
I forgot how to pray
But somewhere in an hazel wood
Some men are still singing up the truth
Maybe I can restart maybe I can be one of them
They can speak directly to the moon
Passing through the whispers of the wood
One day I will rebuild my sensitiveness to the truth
But now it’s constant drain
From my body and soul
I really don’t know why
I’m frightened to be dried
I try to put restrains
But there is no way
I have no other chance
I forgot how to pray
giovedì 14 luglio 2016
Chandra *
La luna: un semicerchio perfetto
in mezzo al bosco di granoturco.
Grattugio pensieri con le palpebre
osservando la sera sgretolarsi.
* "Chandra" singnifica "luna" in sanscrito.
giovedì 7 luglio 2016
I can still being a dreamer even if I never sleep
Tell me tell me that I'm growing
in this midsummer so far
tell me that I am not falling
into the thoughts always dark
I can go on just torturing
myself screaming all the truth
or it's better just obscuring
all the things that are not good
But things are going on
also if I don't want
the time is writing its own papers
My diary is old
but it can never know
what is it going now to happen
Tell me in this place so green and
peaceful in the late evening
that I can still being a dreamer
even if I never sleep
But things are going on
also if I don't want
the time is writing its own papers
My diary is old
but it can never know
what is it going now to happen
in this midsummer so far
tell me that I am not falling
into the thoughts always dark
I can go on just torturing
myself screaming all the truth
or it's better just obscuring
all the things that are not good
But things are going on
also if I don't want
the time is writing its own papers
My diary is old
but it can never know
what is it going now to happen
Tell me in this place so green and
peaceful in the late evening
that I can still being a dreamer
even if I never sleep
But things are going on
also if I don't want
the time is writing its own papers
My diary is old
but it can never know
what is it going now to happen
sabato 25 giugno 2016
La notte di San Giovanni
La notte di San Giovanni
il destino liquefatto
cade goccia dopo goccia
ed erode le certezze
costruite calcolate
in vent'anni di lettere
scritte in segreto
a Dio
Comunità monastica di Bose, 24 giugno 2016
giovedì 23 giugno 2016
Attoniti
Oltre il cancello
i sentieri si biforcano
tra le preghiere
il sole inonda la valle
e ci lascia attoniti
nello scoprirci
così diversi
Comunità monastica di Bose
martedì 21 giugno 2016
In processione
L'estate inizia con luna
a perpendicolo sull'albero
accanto a cipressi increduli
in processione verso il sud:
il sole tende le braccia forti
verso una terra desolata
la notte s'asciuga in un soffio
come la lacrima sul cuscino.
Comunità monastica di Bose
Solstizio d'estate
venerdì 17 giugno 2016
Where God has come from
The little child
Over the sea
Into my arms
She seems so still
With half opened eyes she seems to peep the horizon
As she knew that’s the place where God has come from
I don’t think I’ll be ever dad
It’s something more than what I can
I cannot teach, how to live
But with you in my arms I bet
I can learn to be a better man
So much to learn... where are you from?
I see your smile
under my chin
and in the light
it seems so big
I guess your thoughts are pure as the cold water
Into which I walk with my feet and hels
I don’t think I’ll be ever dad
It’s something more than what I can
I cannot teach, how to live
But with you in my arms I bet
I can learn to be a better man
So much to learn... where are you from?
Lerici, 10 giugno 2016
mercoledì 15 giugno 2016
Sublime
Will I be able to walk again
along the paths of the fire
without tiring my legs
without burning my hands?
And all around I see my old friends
the wood is still the dress of the Land
So I have still some hope
I'm not completely lost
It is something like starting again
into the triumph of Nature
you cannot put through parenthesis the life
the green everywhere is something
that can fill my little soul
there is nothing of so sublime to learn
And people they go on saying
my choices are all wrong, yes may be
so I ask to the Land
I'm not a real man?
But men are not those one so
self confident until being grown
without ever being wrong
I've more mistakes than bones
It is something like starting again
into the triumph of Nature
you cannot put through parenthesis the life
the green everywhere is something
that can fill my little soul
There is nothing of so sublime to learn
21 maggio 2016
along the paths of the fire
without tiring my legs
without burning my hands?
And all around I see my old friends
the wood is still the dress of the Land
So I have still some hope
I'm not completely lost
It is something like starting again
into the triumph of Nature
you cannot put through parenthesis the life
the green everywhere is something
that can fill my little soul
there is nothing of so sublime to learn
And people they go on saying
my choices are all wrong, yes may be
so I ask to the Land
I'm not a real man?
But men are not those one so
self confident until being grown
without ever being wrong
I've more mistakes than bones
It is something like starting again
into the triumph of Nature
you cannot put through parenthesis the life
the green everywhere is something
that can fill my little soul
There is nothing of so sublime to learn
21 maggio 2016
martedì 14 giugno 2016
Resist to all the bets
We are so fragile
under neutron skies
we can only pray to stay alive
Gods among the stones
look at us like ghosts
after the millennia have gone
We need to have the courage to forget
we need to have the strength to start again
'cause we have so many chances
world has changed in so many senses
The temples can resist to all the bets
because they were built by the faith of men
it's the best cement to create
immortality through the hands
The wind here is kind
it brings back the time
to those moments when it was divine
The Sun here can find
its home for the night
where oh it can wait for a new shine
We need to have the courage to forget
we need to have the strength to start again
'cause we have so many chances
world has changed in so many senses
The temples can resist to all the bets
because they were built by the faith of men
it's the best cement to create
immortality through the hands
Agrigento, 14 maggio 2016
under neutron skies
we can only pray to stay alive
Gods among the stones
look at us like ghosts
after the millennia have gone
We need to have the courage to forget
we need to have the strength to start again
'cause we have so many chances
world has changed in so many senses
The temples can resist to all the bets
because they were built by the faith of men
it's the best cement to create
immortality through the hands
The wind here is kind
it brings back the time
to those moments when it was divine
The Sun here can find
its home for the night
where oh it can wait for a new shine
We need to have the courage to forget
we need to have the strength to start again
'cause we have so many chances
world has changed in so many senses
The temples can resist to all the bets
because they were built by the faith of men
it's the best cement to create
immortality through the hands
Agrigento, 14 maggio 2016
martedì 7 giugno 2016
Guf *
Il sole nasce
tra le lenzuola stropicciate
nel luogo di confine
dove si asciugano i sogni
* In ebraico, “stanza delle anime” dove risiedono le anime in attesa dell'incarnazione ed è posto nel settimo Cielo: è da qui che proviene l'anima di ogni nuovo nato
giovedì 2 giugno 2016
There was no drought to dry
A Sunday morning like the others
I walk along my street
And all around me sun is shining
Appearance of peace
Still drops of Faith
I Have deep into my soul like
There was no drought to dry
I often think in the last month
What if I was alone
I would be probably more attentive
Towards my own
Sometimes I believe
Relations all are stealing
The best parts of myself
Today I feel as it’s a success
Just being still on my feet
Trying to get some new access
To dimensions I care
But it’s a feeling
Moving like the wind
Caressing the new trees
8th may 2016
I walk along my street
And all around me sun is shining
Appearance of peace
Still drops of Faith
I Have deep into my soul like
There was no drought to dry
I often think in the last month
What if I was alone
I would be probably more attentive
Towards my own
Sometimes I believe
Relations all are stealing
The best parts of myself
Today I feel as it’s a success
Just being still on my feet
Trying to get some new access
To dimensions I care
But it’s a feeling
Moving like the wind
Caressing the new trees
8th may 2016
martedì 31 maggio 2016
Non ho osservato
Non ho osservato maggio
trasformare il bosco
tra i sussurri della notte
dove morte tesse vita
I miei occhi mendicanti
raccolgono gli angoli
misteriosi e antichi
di un passato non morto
mercoledì 11 maggio 2016
Dopo Beltaine
Dopo l’antica Beltaine
rimane l’odore di cera
portato dal vento umido.
Non ho debiti con gli dei
in questo distacco misurato
dalla terra amante maga.
E i papaveri di nuovo
sanno donare impressioni
sui bordi dei campi di grano.
giovedì 28 aprile 2016
Stranger
As I walk along
these foreign streets
I ask to myself
who I am really
Am I a boy ? Am I a man?
I'm only strains without a faith
And in my hands there's only wind
I cannot tie it at the end
And I am on the top of lost desires
all that I want is so far from me
And I have to discover me once again
May be I'm changed or I am still the same
All that I have lost may be comes back again
While this city calls me stranger anyway
I can see the lines
covering my skin
It's an alphabet
I will learn to read
There is the past that's calling back
while the future struggles to land
I am the rest of what I had
or someone new not evident
And I am on the top of lost desires
all that I want is so far from me
And I have to discover me once again
May be I'm changed or I am still the same
All that I have lost may be comes back again
While this city calls me stranger anyway
Copenhagen, 6 aprile 2016
these foreign streets
I ask to myself
who I am really
Am I a boy ? Am I a man?
I'm only strains without a faith
And in my hands there's only wind
I cannot tie it at the end
And I am on the top of lost desires
all that I want is so far from me
And I have to discover me once again
May be I'm changed or I am still the same
All that I have lost may be comes back again
While this city calls me stranger anyway
I can see the lines
covering my skin
It's an alphabet
I will learn to read
There is the past that's calling back
while the future struggles to land
I am the rest of what I had
or someone new not evident
And I am on the top of lost desires
all that I want is so far from me
And I have to discover me once again
May be I'm changed or I am still the same
All that I have lost may be comes back again
While this city calls me stranger anyway
Copenhagen, 6 aprile 2016
mercoledì 20 aprile 2016
Dove le nuvole sfiorano
Dove le nuvole sfiorano
i crinali delle montagne
tutto diviene possibile
Se il diavolo è stato qui
fu chiamato con altro nome
Pan dai mille volti di giada
Io imparo a stare fermo
nel luogo in cui sono giunto
pur camminando senza sosta
17 aprile 2016
martedì 12 aprile 2016
Consola
Consola vedere tavoli
coperti di storia e silenzio
e le nuove foglie di quercia
solleticare le vetrate
venerdì 1 aprile 2016
A mother you're going to become
I don’t know if
If you think you know me
And If I really know you
After all these years
In this evening
Drizzle on the floor
Speaks about a world
That is going to change
And nothing will be still the same
A mother you’re going to become
And maybe I’m falling
But you must go on
It’s no more a choice
It’s the strongest law
I know I will remain alone
It’s today clearer than before
Your road will be a slope
But you’ll have the ropes
To climb over the hopes
For your new future
Please don’t ask me
If it’s right what you do
You perfectly know what
My answer will be
I am thinking
Life is the only thing
That will always win on
Disillusionment
And nothing will be still the same
A mother you’re going to become
And maybe I’m falling
But you must go on
It’s no more a choice
It’s the strongest law
I know I will remain alone
It’s today clearer than before
Your road will be a slope
But you’ll have the ropes
To climb over the hopes
For your new future
If you think you know me
And If I really know you
After all these years
In this evening
Drizzle on the floor
Speaks about a world
That is going to change
And nothing will be still the same
A mother you’re going to become
And maybe I’m falling
But you must go on
It’s no more a choice
It’s the strongest law
I know I will remain alone
It’s today clearer than before
Your road will be a slope
But you’ll have the ropes
To climb over the hopes
For your new future
Please don’t ask me
If it’s right what you do
You perfectly know what
My answer will be
I am thinking
Life is the only thing
That will always win on
Disillusionment
And nothing will be still the same
A mother you’re going to become
And maybe I’m falling
But you must go on
It’s no more a choice
It’s the strongest law
I know I will remain alone
It’s today clearer than before
Your road will be a slope
But you’ll have the ropes
To climb over the hopes
For your new future
lunedì 28 marzo 2016
What is it a resurrection?
It’s springtime but the wood seems still sleeping
And the sun light can’t reach the soil
It’s Easter but the souls are still freezing
It’s not enough all that we’ve learned
We are waiting for a morning light
To wake up the consciousness inside
Saturday they say everything is going to die
Sunday and the morning suddenly appears so bright
What is it a resurrection?
Our overturn the actions
There is no peace for us if we believe the time
Only steals power without giving us a smile
We forget our being human
Today we remember it once
It’s everyday a fight against myself
And most times I will lose
And it is not a shame to admit I
Have not yet found my way
I am waiting for a morning light
To wake up the consciousness inside
Saturday they say everything is going to die
Sunday and the morning suddenly appears so bright
What is it a resurrection?
Our overturn the actions
There is no peace for us if we believe the time
Only steals power without giving us a smile
We forget our being human
Today we remember it once
And the sun light can’t reach the soil
It’s Easter but the souls are still freezing
It’s not enough all that we’ve learned
We are waiting for a morning light
To wake up the consciousness inside
Saturday they say everything is going to die
Sunday and the morning suddenly appears so bright
What is it a resurrection?
Our overturn the actions
There is no peace for us if we believe the time
Only steals power without giving us a smile
We forget our being human
Today we remember it once
It’s everyday a fight against myself
And most times I will lose
And it is not a shame to admit I
Have not yet found my way
I am waiting for a morning light
To wake up the consciousness inside
Saturday they say everything is going to die
Sunday and the morning suddenly appears so bright
What is it a resurrection?
Our overturn the actions
There is no peace for us if we believe the time
Only steals power without giving us a smile
We forget our being human
Today we remember it once
venerdì 25 marzo 2016
Easter seems flawless
Nobody knows me
I've ever known this
Sometimes I've hoped to be wrong with that
But then I've learned it was a dream.. it's sad oh oh
I wrote a story
But it's so boring
I'm not that one to change to be loved
By others who remain strangers at last oh oh
It is all that I have found
We all are atoms of sound
That try with the voice to explain
Who they are without any blame
And so I feel I’m allowed
To cry when there is a bound
That I can’t climb if I don’t
Admit that I’m totally wrong
Easter seems flawless
Springtime is over
But this year I feel inside I am not
As pure as I have ever really thought
It is all that I have found
We all are atoms of sound
That try with the voice to explain
Who they are without any blame
And so I feel I’m allowed
To cry when there is a bound
That I can’t climb if I don’t
Admit that I’m totally wrong
I've ever known this
Sometimes I've hoped to be wrong with that
But then I've learned it was a dream.. it's sad oh oh
I wrote a story
But it's so boring
I'm not that one to change to be loved
By others who remain strangers at last oh oh
It is all that I have found
We all are atoms of sound
That try with the voice to explain
Who they are without any blame
And so I feel I’m allowed
To cry when there is a bound
That I can’t climb if I don’t
Admit that I’m totally wrong
Easter seems flawless
Springtime is over
But this year I feel inside I am not
As pure as I have ever really thought
It is all that I have found
We all are atoms of sound
That try with the voice to explain
Who they are without any blame
And so I feel I’m allowed
To cry when there is a bound
That I can’t climb if I don’t
Admit that I’m totally wrong
Venerdì santo
Sento i pensieri avvicendarsi
come vetri neri che s’infrangono
percepisco il rumore aguzzo
penetrarmi subdolo negli occhi:
le lacrime di vita non vissuta
con cui dipingo di colori tenui
l’acquerello di un venerdì santo.
(La pioggia non sa colorare il buio
e i miei respiri si fanno ombre
alla ricerca di un calore nuovo)
mercoledì 23 marzo 2016
Prima notte di primavera
Come è triste la mia vita
coperte fredde pensieri afosi
squarci di cielo intravisti
notti immense e microscopiche.
Sogni di vetrate sull’oceano
e lenzuola bianche al vento
sono ormai mitologie stanche
in attesa d’antropopoiesi.
giovedì 17 marzo 2016
Interstizi
Mi sono accorto che il tempo
è in realtà soltanto luce
disincarnata e sospesa
al di là delle colline ad est.
Ricopro i miei occhi di stracci
trapuntati di lettere nere
e nell’assenza di ogni senso
scopro interstizi d’eternità.
martedì 15 marzo 2016
Stralci di metafisica
Ultimo giorno di lezione
la mente diviene liquida
apre i cancelli dell'anima
e sa innalzare ponti
da Israele alla Grecia
dall'Africa fino all'India
rendendo i confini soltanto
stralci di pura metafisica.
venerdì 11 marzo 2016
Religious atheism
I’ve told you many times
That the rain is tears of God
You’ve answered you can’t find
That kind of love
So let me know why
You can stay here alone
Standing up all the times
The things go wrong
People talk to me, and I don’t really hear
As I walk far, from my oldest fears
And I don’t really know whether
Well I will fall or not on pavement oh
I can call this, religious atheism
While God’s not in, the religious things
Because He is just everywhere
The sky is sacred as the land oh
How do you feel inside
Under the immensity
Of the pure winter sky?
No, you cannot lie
To walk now is to climb
Roads are faces of stone
Fox can destroy the bind
That keeps strong the wall *
People talk to me, and I don’t really hear
As I walk far, from my oldest fears
And I don’t really know whether
Well I will fall or not on pavement oh
I can call this, religious atheism
Though God’s not in, the religious things
Because He is just everywhere
The sky is sacred as the land oh
* Nehemiah 4:3 Tobiah the Ammonite, who was at his side, said, "What they are building--even a fox climbing up on it would break down their wall of stones!"
* Neemia 4:3 Ora Tobia l’ammonita era al suo fianco, e diceva: “Anche ciò che edificano, se una volpe salisse [contro di esso], certamente demolirebbe il loro muro di pietre”.
Nella foto: particolare della Badia di Frassinoro (Mo)
Sacred waters
Sacred waters
I still have your power in my veins
On the days when the sleeping was good
And my thoughts are not heavy as the
Days before
Sacred waters
I still have your power in my eyes
On the days when I am not so blind
And among shadows I can recognize
The magic
Sacred waters
I still have your power in my voice
On the days when I can sing alone
And the poetry comes out with no strain
From my mouth
Sacred waters
I still have your power in my hands
On the days when I can really create
A reality built on my faith
With a prayer
Sacred waters
I still have your power in my head
On the days when I can fill it of
Purity and whispers from the gods
And that’s all
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